carpe diem

every day for the past week i've been able to wake up and make myself take a sigh of relief. and honestly, that is a feat for me. i realized it's been at least 10 or so months since i've been able to really relax and not have any (1) stress about to-do lists or (2) anxiety or (3) deadlines or (4) hair loss or (5) relationship troubles or (6) gre studying or (7) grad school applications. it's all out of my power now. or rather, i've forced it out of my power. so today i'm thankful for (1-7) but add 'no' in front of each of them. but i've also noticed that because i don't have much to worry about, i've been panicking a tad because it's just what i'm used to. it's such wasted energy! and everything is really great right now. waking up and loving the day for what it is, and not what i need to get done.

the only thing on my mind right now is getting all of my christmas shopping done, and that's really not such an awful thing. kinda fun actually. i know everyone says this every year, but as i get older i really say it with even more disbelief: i really cannot believe it's already almost christmas again.

where have i been that i didn't know that operas came to knoxville? i've always wanted to go see an opera since i first watched pretty woman. an italian romeo and juliet is coming to the tennessee theatre in february and you can bet i'll be there! (i wish the dress code for operas was the same in knoxville, tn as it was in pretty woman and i could wear a red formal dress and diamonds... sigh... another day)

i need a good book to read that's going to make me think. ever since i watched that ken kesey documentary, i really want to read one flew over the cuckoos nest. that and kerouac's on the road. those have been on my radar for a while though, since my early psych classes. just never gotten around to reading them. let's make that happen in the next few months, krista. i'm also open to any other suggestions!

happy wed-nes-day